The Choice is Yours

Lately I have not been doing all that great I am not going to lie and say that it is always the easiest thing to deal with one of your children being sick. I have just felt like we have been coming under attack recently and if you read Becca's previous post then you already know. It is hard when your prayers don't seem to be working and not only is nothing good happening, but things just seem to be getting worse. You go through tons of different emotions and yes at times it is hard to trust God, but I have come to realize one huge thing, that just happened recently...........The revelation I received is that I have a choice and I have to choose daily in what I believe and how I choose to respond to this valley in my life.....Everyday I get up I have to decide to trust God and yes there are going to be days when my flesh does not want to because nothing seems to be working out, but I have to remember everything that God has done for me in my past......It makes me think of Joseph in the Bible and everything he went through from being betrayed by his brothers, to sold into slavery, and then eventually put in jail.....I am sure that there were days were Joseph did not feel like God was watching out for him, I am sure that Joseph on certain days had to remind himself that even though all this happened God still had his best and was watching out for him......I say all that to say I choose God, everyday I wake up whether it is at home or in the hospital, whether Riley is sick or healthy I choose God because God has been faithful to me in the past and I must remember that....I must remember every little detail because there are going to be days when I need those memories to carry me through the hard times just like I am sure Joseph had to carry his dreams with him to remember what God had shown him....Anyway the choice is ours to either choose God everyday or not to, as for the Turner hold we will always choose God whatever our circumstances look like.