Finding faith in strappy tank tops . . .

When Riley was first born and in the NICU for weeks & weeks at a time, there were more than a few really hard days. Some times our faith and resolve was up to the challenge of whatever those bad days had in store and then there were other days where it was difficult to even put one foot in front of the other. But on those days when faith and hope were not a reflex, we would make the active decision to chose them anyways. One of my ways of choosing to act in hope (that I did not feel) was to get a little something for Riley that was for when she was older than her prognosis. When Riley was 4 weeks old and her doctors said she might live another year at the most, I bought her an adorable 3T tank top. :) Well Riley wore that top yesterday! As I was getting her dressed I couldn't help getting emotional because at the time I bought that for her I honestly wasn't sure if she would live to wear it. But that is the thing about faith - we are not always going to feel the kind of faith that moves mountains but God knows this and does not expect this of us. The faith that honors Him the most is the faith we know, not the faith we feel. It is simply being sure of what we HOPE for and certain of a God we can't always feel or see. We serve a BIG God and He has proved more than faithful to us as Riley has far exceeded what was expected of her life in so many areas. Yesterday just served as a wonderful reminder of what He has carried us through so far and as a great encouragement for the future. We know that there are still plenty of difficult days in store for us with Riley but I am certain that God will give us what we need to handle them as they come.